**A Chance of Sunshine...**<琴の私密日记> <style type="text/css"> body { font-family:Arial; font-size:11px; scrollbar-face-color: #E7E7E7; scrollbar-highlight-color: #FFFFFF; scrollbar-shadow-color: #EFEFEF; scrollbar-3dlight-color: #EFEFEF; scrollbar-arrow-color: #000000; scrollbar-track-color: #E7E7E7; scrollbar-darkshadow-color: #E7E7E7; font-style:normal; font-variant:normal; font-weight:normal } a:link { text-decoration:none; color:#666666; font-weight:bold; } a:visited { text-decoration:none; color:#999999; font-weight:bold; } a:hover { color: #E7E7E7; text-decoration:none; background: #999999; cursor: crosshair; } </style> <meta name='google-adsense-platform-account' content='ca-host-pub-1556223355139109'/> <meta name='google-adsense-platform-domain' content='blogspot.com'/> <style type="text/css">@import url(https://www.blogger.com/static/v1/v-css/navbar/3334278262-classic.css); div.b-mobile {display:none;} </style> </head> <body bgcolor=white><script type="text/javascript"> function setAttributeOnload(object, attribute, val) { if(window.addEventListener) { window.addEventListener('load', function(){ object[attribute] = val; }, false); } else { window.attachEvent('onload', function(){ object[attribute] = val; }); } } </script> <div id="navbar-iframe-container"></div> <script type="text/javascript" src="https://apis.google.com/js/platform.js"></script> <script type="text/javascript"> gapi.load("gapi.iframes:gapi.iframes.style.bubble", function() { if (gapi.iframes && gapi.iframes.getContext) { gapi.iframes.getContext().openChild({ url: 'https://www.blogger.com/navbar/27825234?origin\x3dhttp://simiriji.blogspot.com', where: document.getElementById("navbar-iframe-container"), id: "navbar-iframe" }); } }); </script> <img style="position:absolute; top:-16; left:0" src="http://ourworld.cs.com/yamroll89/pic1.jpg" width="1024" height="768"> </font> <div style="position: absolute;overflow: auto;left:30; top:210; width:350; height:500; filter: Alpha(Opacity=60, FinishOpacity=100);background-color: ffffff"> <div class="1w"> <a name="3519445043821108612"></a> <h7><b>Saturday, February 09, 2008</h7></b> <br><div style="clear:both;"></div><strong><span style="font-size:180%;color:#cc33cc;">我还能去爱人与被爱吗？</span></strong><br /><br />我很害怕，怕自己真的已经丧失了爱人与被爱的能力。一个对爱情仍有憧憬但对现实更加了解的女人，再次面对一段感情时，除了继续的逃还能做什么呢？<br /><br />结束上一段感情半年多了，才发现其实我并没爱上他。又或许我对他唯一的爱全都被当时的失望与心灰意冷给抹杀了？就那么的简单吗？我的爱情就如此的不堪一击? 想起他，或在无意中到过我们共同有过"曾经"的地方，我的心竟连一丝的涟漪都没有。记得在分手的那一晚，自己笑得比以往灿烂，心情比以往更平静。正常的女生就算不大哭，也因该阻止不了眼泪掉下，但我却连想掉眼泪的感觉都没有。面对着一个抱过我，亲过我而将要说Goodbye的男人，我竟然还能在最后送上拥抱，并向他说祝福的话。我的语气里没有一丝的难过，没有任何的悲伤。这个冷冷的我好像把他吓呆了。<br /><br /><br />这种冰冷的感觉真的让我很怕很怕。我当时对他的感觉是爱吗？或是比爱还少一点的喜欢呢？或是什么都不是？那到底爱因该是什么感觉？我真的想知道。<br /><br />从小就知道自己比一般的女生更难爱上或喜欢上任何人。我是个早熟的女孩，对儿女之情却只有婴儿般的程度。当时总能安慰自己说：等自己再长大一点就明白了。十八岁时，我还是用同样的方法安慰自己。二十一岁时，我能做的还是等。等到我终于勇敢的踏出了一步后再跌到了，跌伤的我还是不明白爱的感觉。皮外伤好了，但不会感到痛的心竟是一种残障。<br /><br /><span style="color:#6600cc;">你能等我吗？你能等我再一次有勇气去面对我的残障吗？你能用爱除去我心中的恐惧吗？我的脚将会不受控制的一直跑着，你有信心能跑得比我快，在前方把我紧紧地拦下吗？你有足够的热情去融化我冰冷的心吗？你能一直在我身旁守着我保护我至到我有能力保护你吗？你能爱我比我爱你多一点吗？你觉得我值得你这样的付出吗？</span><br /><span style="color:#6600cc;"></span><br /><span style="color:#333333;">____________________________________________________________________</span><br /><span style="color:#333333;"></span><br /><span style="color:#333333;">一直很喜欢吴淡如的文笔，这是她其一专栏的引述：</span><br /><span style="color:#333333;"></span><br /><span style="color:#333333;">[ 旧情是过期的罐头 </span><br /><br /><span style="color:#333333;">发现“其实我没有爱过他”的人，是幸运的，至少，没有跟他在一起，是正确选择。爱过，就好了。</span><br /><span style="color:#333333;"></span><br /><span style="color:#333333;">发现“其实他还是最好”的人，是更幸福的，此世此生，曾有真正爱过的人，也就无憾。]</span><br /><span style="color:#333333;"></span><br /><span style="color:#333333;"></span><br /><span style="color:#333333;"><strong>我其实也希望，你会是那个会让“我觉得我幸福是因为我能爱上你”的人。。。</strong> </span><div style="clear:both; padding-bottom:0.25em"></div> <br> <br><br> <center>|<a href="kaiqin18@gmail.com">琴</a>| <a href="2008/02/#3519445043821108612#3519445043821108612" onMouseOver="window.status='permanant link '; return true" onMouseOut="window.status=''; return true">9.2.08</a>| <br><br> </center></p> </div></div> <script language="JavaScript1.2"> /* Snow Effect Script Submitted by Altan d.o.o. 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