**A Chance of Sunshine...**<琴の私密日记> <style type="text/css"> body { font-family:Arial; font-size:11px; scrollbar-face-color: #E7E7E7; scrollbar-highlight-color: #FFFFFF; scrollbar-shadow-color: #EFEFEF; scrollbar-3dlight-color: #EFEFEF; scrollbar-arrow-color: #000000; scrollbar-track-color: #E7E7E7; scrollbar-darkshadow-color: #E7E7E7; font-style:normal; font-variant:normal; font-weight:normal } a:link { text-decoration:none; color:#666666; font-weight:bold; } a:visited { text-decoration:none; color:#999999; font-weight:bold; } a:hover { color: #E7E7E7; text-decoration:none; background: #999999; cursor: crosshair; } </style> <meta name='google-adsense-platform-account' content='ca-host-pub-1556223355139109'/> <meta name='google-adsense-platform-domain' content='blogspot.com'/> <style type="text/css">@import url(https://www.blogger.com/static/v1/v-css/navbar/3334278262-classic.css); div.b-mobile {display:none;} </style> </head> <body bgcolor=white><script type="text/javascript"> function setAttributeOnload(object, attribute, val) { if(window.addEventListener) { window.addEventListener('load', function(){ object[attribute] = val; 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