**A Chance of Sunshine...**<琴の私密日记> <style type="text/css"> body { font-family:Arial; font-size:11px; scrollbar-face-color: #E7E7E7; scrollbar-highlight-color: #FFFFFF; scrollbar-shadow-color: #EFEFEF; scrollbar-3dlight-color: #EFEFEF; scrollbar-arrow-color: #000000; scrollbar-track-color: #E7E7E7; scrollbar-darkshadow-color: #E7E7E7; font-style:normal; font-variant:normal; font-weight:normal } a:link { text-decoration:none; color:#666666; font-weight:bold; } a:visited { text-decoration:none; color:#999999; font-weight:bold; } a:hover { color: #E7E7E7; text-decoration:none; background: #999999; cursor: crosshair; } </style> <meta name='google-adsense-platform-account' content='ca-host-pub-1556223355139109'/> <meta name='google-adsense-platform-domain' content='blogspot.com'/> <style type="text/css">@import url(https://www.blogger.com/static/v1/v-css/navbar/3334278262-classic.css); div.b-mobile {display:none;} </style> </head> <body bgcolor=white><script type="text/javascript"> function setAttributeOnload(object, attribute, val) { if(window.addEventListener) { window.addEventListener('load', function(){ object[attribute] = val; }, false); } else { window.attachEvent('onload', function(){ object[attribute] = val; }); } } </script> <div id="navbar-iframe-container"></div> <script type="text/javascript" src="https://apis.google.com/js/platform.js"></script> <script type="text/javascript"> gapi.load("gapi.iframes:gapi.iframes.style.bubble", function() { if (gapi.iframes && gapi.iframes.getContext) { gapi.iframes.getContext().openChild({ url: 'https://www.blogger.com/navbar/27825234?origin\x3dhttp://simiriji.blogspot.com', where: document.getElementById("navbar-iframe-container"), id: "navbar-iframe" }); } }); </script> <img style="position:absolute; top:-16; left:0" src="http://ourworld.cs.com/yamroll89/pic1.jpg" width="1024" height="768"> </font> <div style="position: absolute;overflow: auto;left:30; top:210; width:350; height:500; filter: Alpha(Opacity=60, FinishOpacity=100);background-color: ffffff"> <div class="1w"> <a name="115532180300929538"></a> <h7><b>Saturday, August 12, 2006</h7></b> <br><div style="clear:both;"></div><strong><span style="color:#ff0000;">I</span><span style="color:#ff0000;"> Have A Bitchy Boss!!!</span></strong><br /><br />First time going to after work "meeting", well, it's more of a get-together thingy for senior and newbies I guess, as well as spending some time with Boss...<br />I'm rather traumatised by this unofficial chill-out meeting... Saw a lot, hear a lot of bitching and office politics. And I dun really like what I had see or hear.<br /><br />My Boss is a typical <span style="color:#cc33cc;">Bitch</span>!!! Well, she sort of insulted me a dozen times since noon and never waste a chance to screw me in front of other girls. I can almost Quote all she had said to me/about me word for word! This is how it went.....<br /><br />She came in after lunch, walked over to me, said: Serene, first rule, never leave your jacket and go out, and 2nd, never just take your purse and tissue out only and look so AH SOH, you shld have carry the whole handbag, I dun want my girls to look like an admin cleck and behave like one. You rep Company and la la la la .......<br /><span style="color:#990000;">Point Taken.</span><br /><span style="color:#990000;"></span><br /><span style="color:#990000;"></span><span style="color:#333333;">She mentioned this again for another <span style="color:#cc33cc;">3 times</span> during the night, she said this again in fornt of the "girls" and repeated each time when my supervisor Viv and her Lawyer friend joined in. </span><br /><span style="color:#333333;">Each time making me the <span style="color:#ff0000;">center of Focus</span>, the <span style="color:#ff0000;">TARGET</span> for her jokes! She said tt she is <span style="color:#ff0000;">CONNED</span> by me during interview, and tt I looked so gorgeous then but now look like an </span><span style="color:#cc33cc;">AH SOH </span><span style="color:#330033;">nowadays! She even asked other girls to take me shopping for shoes and bags, can't believe that she actually ask a girl to pass me her old bags and shoes! She even mention abt my heavy bottom figure! Next she went on discribing her interview process, on how she use the selection criteria on "looks" and "Appearances", how she find some candidates disgusting due to their unfavourable appearances!!! For every sentence, I can feel the arrows shooting towards me, implying that I'm the "wrong choice" that spoils her taste, the "black sheep" among her group of "glam and posh girls" That's so humililating!!!!! </span><br /><span style="color:#330033;"></span><br /><span style="color:#330033;">Funny, I was not at all mad nor upset abt all these the whole night, were "taking the shit by a pinch of salt" then and still making jokes out of myself! Well, those girls, they are those that I can never become, those chic Ang-mo-model-looking-posh-chicks that speak Slanged English, talk about branded shoes and bitch around with BOSS. Ya, I was not the only one that do not fit into the League, but i'm the most "extra" one. I have to speak English with the slang the whole night instead of chinese-style broken english, which I dun dare to talk much either. Seriously can't see future of becoming one of them. </span><span style="color:#330033;">If for this, I have to change myself to someone that I will even hate myself for.</span><br /><span style="color:#330033;"></span><br /><span style="color:#330033;">Though is an horrible night, with discouraging and insulting comments, I have realised that this is the reality, the real corporate working world... Come-on, who say sincerity and attitude counts? That's theory for kids man, no one practise this in the world out here!I never take much on what my Bitchy Boss had said because all these are what I have been unhappy about since young. For the past 12 yr, I have been in dark shadows of being a plain and ugly duckling, with unproportionate butt size and thunder tights. I have made significant improvements since then. Who do not wish to become a gorgeous princess that sweep feets off the ground every where she goes? I wish for, try hard for and well, I just can't change my genes, my look and hip size... Guess I have to just keep trying and improve myself on the areas that I can possibly improve and leave the rest for others to judge. Self esteem and confidence are already at the rock-bottom of the valley and the only available next step are moving up, just like stock prices, isn't it? </span><br /><span style="color:#330033;"></span><br /><span style="color:#330033;">Realise that that what I want for my life is job satisfaction and be loved, not wealth and great achievements. I should go for jobs that can put me in the right fields, even for lower pay rates. I shall start learning hard and equipt myself with all the working survival skills and goes for the next better offer!!! Yup, that's what I'm going to do...... Work hard, learn hard and get my butt out.</span><div style="clear:both; padding-bottom:0.25em"></div> <br> <br><br> <center>|<a href="kaiqin18@gmail.com">琴</a>| <a href="2006/08/#115532180300929538#115532180300929538" onMouseOver="window.status='permanant link '; return true" onMouseOut="window.status=''; return true">12.8.06</a>| <br><br> </center></p> </div></div> <script language="JavaScript1.2"> /* Snow Effect Script Submitted by Altan d.o.o. (snow@altan.hr, http://www.altan.hr/snow/index.html) Permission granted to Dynamicdrive.com to feature script in archive For full source code to this script, visit http://dynamicdrive.com */ //Configure below to change URL path to the snow image var snowsrc="http://ourworld.cs.com/yamroll89/snow2.gif" // Configure below to change number of snow to render var no = 20; var ns4up = (document.layers) ? 1 : 0; // browser sniffer var ie4up = (document.all) ? 1 : 0; var ns6up = (document.getElementById&&!document.all) ? 1 : 0; var dx, xp, yp; // coordinate and position variables var am, stx, sty; // amplitude and step variables var i, doc_width = 800, doc_height = 600; if (ns4up||ns6up) { doc_width = self.innerWidth; doc_height = self.innerHeight; } else if (ie4up) { doc_width = document.body.clientWidth; doc_height = document.body.clientHeight; } dx = new Array(); xp = new Array(); yp = new Array(); am = new Array(); stx = new Array(); sty = new Array(); for (i = 0; i < no; ++ i) { dx[i] = 0; // set coordinate variables xp[i] = Math.random()*(doc_width-50); // set position variables yp[i] = Math.random()*doc_height; am[i] = Math.random()*20; // set amplitude variables stx[i] = 0.02 + Math.random()/10; // set step variables sty[i] = 0.7 + Math.random(); // set step variables if (ns4up) { // set layers if (i == 0) { document.write("<layer name=\"dot"+ i +"\" left=\"15\" top=\"15\" visibility=\"show\"><a href=\"http://dynamicdrive.com/\"><img src='"+snowsrc+"' border=\"0\"></a></layer>"); } else { document.write("<layer name=\"dot"+ i +"\" left=\"15\" top=\"15\" visibility=\"show\"><img src='"+snowsrc+"' border=\"0\"></layer>"); } } else if (ie4up||ns6up) { if (i == 0) { document.write("<div id=\"dot"+ i +"\" style=\"POSITION: absolute; Z-INDEX: "+ i +"; VISIBILITY: visible; TOP: 15px; LEFT: 15px;\"><a href=\"http://dynamicdrive.com\"><img src='"+snowsrc+"' border=\"0\"></a></div>"); } else { document.write("<div id=\"dot"+ i +"\" style=\"POSITION: absolute; Z-INDEX: "+ i +"; VISIBILITY: visible; TOP: 15px; LEFT: 15px;\"><img src='"+snowsrc+"' border=\"0\"></div>"); } } } function snowNS() { // Netscape main animation function for (i = 0; i < no; ++ i) { // iterate for every dot yp[i] += sty[i]; if (yp[i] > doc_height-50) { xp[i] = Math.random()*(doc_width-am[i]-30); yp[i] = 0; stx[i] = 0.02 + Math.random()/10; sty[i] = 0.7 + Math.random(); doc_width = self.innerWidth; doc_height = self.innerHeight; } dx[i] += stx[i]; document.layers["dot"+i].top = yp[i]; document.layers["dot"+i].left = xp[i] + am[i]*Math.sin(dx[i]); } setTimeout("snowNS()", 10); } function snowIE_NS6() { // IE and NS6 main animation function for (i = 0; i < no; ++ i) { // iterate for every dot yp[i] += sty[i]; if (yp[i] > doc_height-50) { xp[i] = Math.random()*(doc_width-am[i]-30); yp[i] = 0; stx[i] = 0.02 + Math.random()/10; sty[i] = 0.7 + Math.random(); doc_width = ns6up?window.innerWidth : document.body.clientWidth; doc_height = ns6up?window.innerHeight : document.body.clientHeight; } dx[i] += stx[i]; if (ie4up){ document.all["dot"+i].style.pixelTop = yp[i]; document.all["dot"+i].style.pixelLeft = xp[i] + am[i]*Math.sin(dx[i]); } else if (ns6up){ document.getElementById("dot"+i).style.top=yp[i]; document.getElementById("dot"+i).style.left=xp[i] + am[i]*Math.sin(dx[i]); } } setTimeout("snowIE_NS6()", 10); } if (ns4up) { snowNS(); } else if (ie4up||ns6up) { snowIE_NS6(); } </script> </font> <div style="position: absolute;overflow: auto; left:380; top:210; width:370; height: 500; filter: Alpha(Opacity=60, FinishOpacity=100); background-color: white; border: 1px solid none"> <font size="2"> <marquee width="280" height="169" scrollamount="2" direction="up"> <p class="MsoNormal" align="center" style="text-align: center; text-autospace: none"> <font color="#666666"><span style="font-family: MS Song"> 他们住在城市郊区同一栋公寓楼里。</span></font></p> <p class="MsoNormal" align="center" style="text-align: center; text-autospace: none"> <font color="#666666"><span style="font-family: MS Song">每次出门，不管去哪里，</span></font></p> <p class="MsoNormal" align="center" style="text-align: center; text-autospace: none"> <font color="#666666"><span style="font-family: MS Song">她总是习惯性地向左走，</span></font></p> <p class="MsoNormal" align="center" style="text-align: center; text-autospace: none"> <font color="#666666"><span style="font-family: MS Song">而他总是习惯性地向右走。</span></font></p> <p class="MsoNormal" align="center" style="text-align: center; text-autospace: none"> <font color="#666666"><span style="font-family: MS Song">他们从不曾相遇</span></font></p> <p class="MsoNormal" align="center" style="text-align: center; text-autospace: none"> <font color="#666666"><span style="font-family:Arial"></body></html>